Spent the New Years Eve with family and actually had no plans on going out. I wanted to start the year right by just staying home and doing nothing crazy but then Nova Johnston had to fakkin ruin it. Haha the bitch forced me to celebrate the New year out. I love how she ended up dragging my ass to 7th high, Opus, Prive and Aracama. For some reason, time flew so fast and the moment we saw the sunlight, we headed to Eastwood to party even more. The party ended at 3 pm. IT WAS CRAZY. So much for my new years resolution……….
”Make sure to own only what you can always carry with you: Know languages, know countries, know people. Let your memory be your travel bag.”
For the longest time i have tried to be a good friend, I tried my best to settle our differences and tried to be mature enough to forgive you for the pain you have caused me in the past. And for a little while, it was great. The friendship, the laughs, the hanging out, the reuniting and the reminiscing. We were friends again and i would have done anything to keep it that way. Sadly, your attitude and the mood swings is getting old and is enough to make me realize that i do not deserve to be treated that way. What pisses me off is the fact that i actually tolerated it for a while. Your snide remarks, your “i don’t give a shit about you” attitude when we’re with other people and the way you constantly humiliate me in front of your friends. You made it clear that your friends come first, that i wasn’t very welcome. You disrespected me and i took it. I hate how i just fucking sat there and took it. — NEVER AGAIN.
I guess part of my own journey toward change has involved with recognizing that the power to change lies within myself, and I can’t place blame on any other person for my happiness/unhappiness. See, I could have walked away that night, but i didn’t. The emotional bond i had with him was just so strong that it clouded my ability to see how toxic he is in my life. How all he does is drain, humiliate and hurt me without even realizing it. But this time, i’m making a stand. I am smart enough to know that i CAN walk away. Far far away. That i can put an end to this bullshit.
Patrick Mathieu wrote: “Insanity is dealing with the same person over and over again and expecting them to act differently this time.”
So i guess, confronting the person and making ultimatums again and again can only do so much. Sure, It’s going to be tough but I’m sure in the long run i will thank myself for standing up for me. With this being said, i have come to the realization that i not only have one toxic person in my life but a few people too who from time to time, try to drain the life out of me and bring me down. Friends who consistently invite me to drink, do drugs and get me in a lot of trouble. Friends who bombard me with negativity, who are selfish and inconsiderate about my feelings. Friends who continuously lie and try to manipulate their way all the time And i have the power to not let it happen again.
Simply put, I am currently trying to make changes in my life and if you do not here from me, i guess you’re one of them. So Goodbye people from my past, it was fun while it lasted. Starting the year 2013 by surrounding myself with people who truly love me and make me happy. Again, happiness is a choice. And right now it’s all i want in life— To be peaceful, secure and happy.
Day 21: Write your favorite quotes or passages from books that you have read
1. “I had no illusions about love anymore. It came, it went, it left casualties or it didn’t. People are not meant to be together forever, regardless of what the songs say.” ― Sarah Dessen, The Truth about Forever
2. “As long as this exists, this sunshine and this cloudless sky, and as long as I can enjoy it, how can I be sad?” ― Anne Frank, The Diary of a Young Girl
3. “I wanted to say that I was sorry, but not for the obvious. I was sorry that I had turned out to be such a big disappointment. Sorry that I couldn’t make things better. Sorry that everything I touched turned to crap. Seeing Mom cry had torn me up. Until finally she said something. “What happened to your hair? Did you do that?”At that moment, I hated Britney Spears.” ― Jordan Dane, In the Arms of Stone Angels
“People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway. If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway. For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.” -Mother Theresa
It’s been 2 months since Jon left the country and went back to the states. Spontaneous as he is, he decided to leave, file an LOA and told his teachers that he got his baby momma pregnant (which mind you, is all a big fat lie). The first 2 weeks were very hard for me. I no longer had my best friend in Taft. I no longer had a place to crash. I missed it all. His dj set, his music, his room that always smelled of pot, his constant texts telling me to come over, our movie marathons, our sleepovers, the parties, the getting drunk, the acting like a complete retard and not giving a shit, his obsession for shoes, his stories, everyfuckingthing. And it took me a while to get used to him being gone.
You see, his place in archers was my haven, my happy place, my escape. None of our problems mattered because we had our own little world where drama wasn’t allowed. We were all about having fun, basking in the present and enjoying the moment. Our bond was so tight. Never had a friend i could be so comfortable with. He was my kuya, my wingman, my best friend. Just writing about it now and thinking about all the memories we’ve spent brings tears to my eyes. He is the most amazing guy i know and i love how he understands and loves me despite of my flaws. He’s the one person i can tell everything to without holding back, the one person i can trust with my life. I would drop anything to be there if he needs me. And i wouldn’t hesitate to choke and bitch slap any girl who tries to hurt or take advantage of him in any way.
People would always tell us that they think we’re a cute couple. He and i would look at each other, laugh, let out a big EEEWWW and say NEVER. Sure, we may seem like a bickering couple at times and people wouldn’t shut up about it but we never really mind because we both know what we really are and that’s friends, best-fucking-friends. He promised me he’d be back next year and i’m so darn excited i can’t even begin to explain how happy i am. Just a few more weeks and everything will be back to how it’s supposed to be. Fast forward to january, please!!!
“Maybe some women aren’t meant to be tamed. Maybe they just need to run free til they find someone just as wild to run with them.”
“But that’s just it, the butterflies never seem to accompany the right people. All the nice guys who are right for you, they never make your stomach go flip flop.”
A 5 piece collection by Beverly Moon
Spot me, you’ll see me twice ;)
“I make mistakes. That’s what I do. I speak without thinking, I act without knowing. I tend to party a lot. I drink so much that I can barely walk…I’m a fantastic lover though, and an amazing friend. God knows I mean well.” -Sex and the city
I cannot believe that Christmas is in 8 days. No doubt about it, time flies. I guess it’s true what they say, time goes by fast when you’re busy having fun. So here i am, wishing everybody a Merry Christmas in advance. I hope we all enjoy the holidays and take time to realize what Christmas is truly about. Merry Christmas from all of us! ❤ ❤ - eew, did i really just do that. Here’s more!
#HashtagGalore ♥ ❤ ♥ ❤ ♥ ❤ - uy wow, ismall heart, big heart. HAHAHHAHA
- #HannahFortich #RyePaeste #JoeVargas #YoungJV #AleezaGay #NinaSantiago okay, these hearts and hashtags have got to stop. Kbye XoXoxoXoxox - HAHAHA Kbyenatalagaguys.
“She was sick of it all. If only there was someone to sympathize with her in her readings. But there was no one, and she was very cross. So to have her meals, and her daily walk, and her fill of novels, and to be left alone, was all that she asked of the gods.”
The Metro Manila Pride March took place in the Makati City Hall quadrangle on December 8, 2012. I got there as early as 11 am because a friend of mine was part of it and i wanted to show him my love and support by being there for him all throughout. During the event, i got to meet a lot of people and had a really good chat with most of them. I found out that among all the groups and organizations, TFP or Task Force Pride is the official group that organizes the whole event yearly. I Asked my friend what the objective of the march is and he answered
“To make our society recognize and hopefully learn to respect our diversity. All we want is equal rights, really. The pride march is a call to end gay hate and discrimination because frankly, we’re so damn sick of it.”
He further explained that over a hundred gay hate crimes have been reported in our country last year and that the group aims to put a stop to this by educating the society about LGBT’s issues and concerns. Simply put, They try to promote peace, love , acceptance and equality.
I had the opportunity to listen to the stories of my new found friends. They all seemed to have very colorful and interesting lives and it was just so intriguing that I couldn’t stop asking questions. We had a beautiful heart felt moment in which they shared their funny stories a long with their pain, their longing for acceptance not only within the society but with their very own families as well. I heard about painful incidents where their very own family members would abuse them not only verbally but physically. It was indeed heart breaking. After the talk, I started to realize the importance of the event and it brought me closer as I myself wanted more than anything to be part of it and to end all the hate, discrimination and prejudice towards gay people.
I believe that each one of us regardless of our sexual orientation has the right to live a normal life and does not deserve to be judged, hated and ridiculed in any way. It’s time for us to open up our minds, time for us to be more accepting and supportive. #StraightWithoutTheHate #LoveKnowsNoGender #SomePeopleAreGayGetOverIt #Peace #Love #Acceptance
My ability to do my eyeliner is reminiscent of a lot of things in my life. Close, but never quite right.